Seriously, when I left for Conserve I didn't really have a direction, I was just doing what my parents said would be a good idea and then left home and learned some things about the world and met people who are amazing and being with them for a few short months has really screwed my head on straight. It just seems that my straight is different than other people's straight. It seems like there are only a few people left who I really click with, and they all live farther away than I would like. I miss my Conserve friends, and trying to figure out a way that we can all get together is like searching for the proverbial needle in a haystack.
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Other than my usual frustrations life is pretty good; I've been visiting my friend in an Amish community -tangent, the Amish are awesome. Really; they're so easy to talk to, and they are SO nice. Plus, I love how the little 8-12 year olds drive a bulldozer to get wood from the wood pile. - the drive time is a little up there but it's so worth it. I've also been spending a lot of time with a kid who has autism, I really don't get why people think less off them, they're so nice and they love everyone. Every time I see him he's always so happy to see me and he just makes everything around him glow. People just don't understand what they have to offer, for me, he offers a chance to let down my walls and to just be myself. People like him don't judge.
Last night I could not go to sleep and for a while I could not figure out why, but after a while I realized that I not being with people form Conserve anymore has left a hole inside me that I'm not sure how I'll fill.
Argh!!! The world is messed up... sigh.
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