Looking For Wilderness

Ever since coming home I have have been walking through all of the larger parks nearby, trying to find one place where I can't see a building or hear the endless drone of the freeway as he roar of engines and the whoosh of rushing air is punctuated by interminable honking as commuters swerve to avoid one another on the yellow and white striped blacktop.
The two largest parks that I have explored are McCarthy and Shwartzkopf. Each of these has a few places where one can not see any buildings but I'm beginning to doubt the existence of any place where you can't hear the freeway...
The woods here are very young, babies, really, when you compare them to the forests in northern Wisconsin. The ground is covered with underbrush and tall skinny trees that grow very close together, sort of like the the dense maple stands on the eastern side of Little Donahue.
I found a trail network behind McCarthy park while avoiding a group of junkies. I crossed a bridge that I never knew existed, hid my bike, and started exploring along the very eutrophic stream that runs through both McCarthy and Shwartzkopf park. I found a few peaceful places along the way, but mostly the trial was littered with garbage and other interesting (awkward) articles.
My goal is to find a new phenology spot, a place where I can go to think, reflect, meditate and to just enjoy the feeling of being separate from the rest of the world.
As I walk the trails I take time to reflect on my time at Conserve; the fun I had the things I learned, the good times and the bad and the friends who stuck with me through both, (Mattie, Mei-Jing, Aaron, Maeve, Garret, Zeki and Kai!) I love and miss you much! At the same times I am glad that I am where I can apply all the things that I learned about academically, about nature and, most importantly, about myself.
I have realized that in order to move forward I need to find Wilderness in myself, to find a place inside me that has been untrammeled by the world and to listen to it.
May we all find our Wilderness.